Purpose

There was a great deal of talking, and planning.  On our ways out.  We've decided on one attempt, now.  Moira-san and Alanna-san have ventured back into town while, for now, myself and Aren-chan wait behind at the hill.

I suppose that particular honorific comes with a beginning understanding of many things.  The chief of which is, I believe, part of why Mother sent me to this band in particular, instead of one composed of other children of the Amatsukami.  Something that now seems incredibly simple and obvious, now.  It is that I must learn and grow, to be an honor to my family and my home.  That became abundantly clear today, finally seeing everything get dumped on Aren-chan, and how I had treated her since the incident under the mountain.  Hiding behind my native language, as well, when I grew angry about it...as I told Aren-chan when we spoke.  It was an act of abject cowardice.  I do it far too much, even with the others.  It is..difficult, not to simply default to the language I know best.  But many times it has been me hiding.  And I was taught better.

Given the choice between discovery and death, and what she did and possibly recovering the relic, Aren-chan did what she had to do.  Had I not just reacted, I would have realized that far sooner and avoided all of this.  But I have apologized.  It seems so little, and there was no way to justify my foolishness.  I think Aren-chan understood, though.  This does make me happy.  I consider her a friend, a good one.  Of the three of the others, she understands me best, I think.  Alanna-san does as well, but I suspect that is more warrior to warrior.  Moira-san, at least, tries, though I suspect she may be missing the mark.

I have little enough to repay Aren-chan's kindness and to help make up for how rude I was.  So I have decided to teach her Japanese.  Alanna-san can translate for Moira-san, so this way, Aren-chan won't be left out.  I can still wish I had more to give.  But all I can do is teach her the language of my home, and be sure to look after her-

The others are returning.  I had best pack up, I hope their plans will be enough.  I tire of this place.